It's a scary thought to wake up in the morning and, dazed, hungry for morning nourishment, and lethargic, wonder what it means to make an impenetrable wall between one's mind and heart. Unfortunately, for me, I can't remember where I've read about this impenetrable wall — this wall that is necessary to achieve happiness with one's self and to feel love for all things. But, I think it's necessary to at least explore it.
Perhaps it's not a separation of the mind and heart that I really mean. What if, what I'm trying to say is a wall between the heart's clinging desires and the clarity of the rest of one's person is necessary to achieve happiness and love? I feel that that question makes more sense, and I feel I can answer that question with a confident and resounding yes.
So, it's only part of the heart that needs to be blocked. … Even that statement rings with a sour note in me. For one needs to acknowledge and accept everything that's part of their humanity as themselves, without judgment, hatred, or impatience. To simply block those emotions and thoughts, I'd imagine, can't be very healthy. Wouldn't it be easier to look at them, nod to yourself, and accept that those feelings are, right now, fact? Wouldn't it be that, after you look into one's part of the heart that holds feelings of clinging and desire — after giving that part the most open and kind and clear look — those feelings will disappear, or, at least, lessen it's grip on you?
I think that's where my reflections and meditations will end up today. Perhaps I'll find an answer to the question, perhaps I won't. But days are too special to spend them thinking, when there are parks to visit, tea to drink, and grass in which to nap.
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