Reflection On Mind And Heart

It's a scary thought to wake up in the morning and, dazed, hungry for morning nourishment, and lethargic, wonder what it means to make an impenetrable wall between one's mind and heart. Unfortunately, for me, I can't remember where I've read about this impenetrable wall — this wall that is necessary to achieve happiness with one's self and to feel love for all things. But, I think it's necessary to at least explore it.

Perhaps it's not a separation of the mind and heart that I really mean. What if, what I'm trying to say is a wall between the heart's clinging desires and the clarity of the rest of one's person is necessary to achieve happiness and love? I feel that that question makes more sense, and I feel I can answer that question with a confident and resounding yes.

So, it's only part of the heart that needs to be blocked. … Even that statement rings with a sour note in me. For one needs to acknowledge and accept everything that's part of their humanity as themselves, without judgment, hatred, or impatience. To simply block those emotions and thoughts, I'd imagine, can't be very healthy. Wouldn't it be easier to look at them, nod to yourself, and accept that those feelings are, right now, fact? Wouldn't it be that, after you look into one's part of the heart that holds feelings of clinging and desire — after giving that part the most open and kind and clear look — those feelings will disappear, or, at least, lessen it's grip on you?

I think that's where my reflections and meditations will end up today. Perhaps I'll find an answer to the question, perhaps I won't. But days are too special to spend them thinking, when there are parks to visit, tea to drink, and grass in which to nap.

Honesty and Openness Reflections

I woke up this morning quite relaxed and elated with waking up, though I did wish I could sleep a little longer than I have been sleeping. Last night was spent cuddling with a friend of mine who wanted some cuddling, and I wanted it too. I must say that it was relaxing and fun and full of affection to have that night happen. But that night must stay that night; I can't cling to that night, less I miss other nights, and other days, and other fun things that today has in store.

Honesty and openness are my focus this morning and this day, on my meditations and thoughts, in addition to my self love meditations. In striving for loving everyone with the love that the Lord has for all people, I feel that it is important to be honest and open to what you are feeling to everyone (who is willing to listen, of course).

Honesty and openness comes from an awareness that we all are human beings, who live in the same world, and suffer the same pains, but also enjoy the same joys. At the very base of our core we have that connection with everyone we know and don't know. These are qualities that are based on love, not on the selfish clinging on to a friend or a relative or a partner or a significant other, or based on fear and anxiety. No, through love, honesty and openness blossom, along with the fearlessness to speak frankly and honestly.

Does this mean, however, that one should blabber away everything in your thoughts to everyone? I don't know the answer yet to that question. But, I do know these two things: Make sure everyone involved is receptive to listening, and, when you do speak, speak without the pangs of anger or jealousy or hate or any other destruction.

Honesty, openness, love. They're such confusing things, and such simple things.